I wasnt talking about people you used to fuck with baby. I was talking about your past friends. Whether it be a home boy or a old gf tryna get back with you. And I dont wanna know your every move because I dont trust you or I wanna keep tabs on you. I wanna know your every move because it makes me feel like I'm a part of you. Like I'm there with you even though I'm not. And sometimes I'm just afraid your past friends might influence you to be the person you used to be... and I'm not saying your weak, easily influenced, or dumb but baby every body backslides... and I just feel you've come to far from the boy you used to be to the man you are now to go backwards. I love that man in you and I dont wanna lose him. And I dont want more from you. You keep asking me, "What do you awnt me to do?" and the truth is, I dont know, that's why I tell you I dont. And sometimes I even push you to go out and spend time with your family and whatnot, and the reason I do that is because I'm insecure. I'm in love with a man I cant be with all the time, and I get afraid if I force you to spend too much time with me, you'll start to get bored. So it's a constant frustrating and confusing battle to please both of us. Because all I wanna do is spend every second with you, but I'm so insecure that I feel you dont want the same, so I push you away so you wont get tired of being so close, and leave me. So yes, I know I've been up and down lately but its only because I want you close but I dont want you to get sick of it.

Oh.. and I stopped a lot of things I used to do too Silas. And I got rid of A LOT of friend. And yes, I could be going out every night too. But what good would that do me at the end of the night if I dont have the man I wanna spend the rest of my life with.

I dont understand the irritating thing either. I dont think it's that we hate each other or anything like that but I do believe like normal relationships, sometimes we just needed to ease up and give each other space... that's it baby. And I think that's why sometimes we seem like we're looking for a way out. We're not looking for a way out the relationship but we do need to take a breather from each other every now and then baby. Not because we're getting tired of each other but because everybody has things in their life that they just need to deal with alone. We need that time every now and then baby.

I'm sorry if it hurt when I said that, but like I told you, sometimes my insecurities get the best of me and I feel like you dont want me anymore or YOU wanna let me go.

And I'm not tired of you baby. You are the love of my life, I dont ever wanna let you go. So even if I feel like beating you upside da head with a brick, I'm still gon try to make it work because I need you baby.

And maybe I dont need you like I think I do. But maybe you dont need me like you think you do either. I dont know and I dont care, but as long as there's a you and there's a me, imma keep trying to make it work, because I THINK I need you and until this relationship comes to an end and lets me know otherwise, imma walk around acting like I KNOW I need you cuz baby right now, you are all I ever wanted and needed and I love you for that baby.

And we aint neva gon lose this bond. This shit is forever.

Your Wife, Mrs. Samara Williams